Recently my husband and I purchased a cria, which is a baby alpaca. We didn’t actually buy it outright. We are taking part in a program that our friend, Cindy Harris, the owner of Alpacas at Windy Hill, put together. The program gives us the opportunity to pay for the board and care of a pregnant alpaca and when the baby is born, we will own it. Our “Baby Mama” is named Alope and our cria should be born in October.
Friends and especially family ask us “Why are you buying an Alpaca when you live in Los Angeles and have a patio that can barely hold a barbecue and three potted plants?” My answer is always the same, “Because it brings me joy and makes us happy!”
For the last few years I have been on the “Road to Reinvention.” Part of that process is finding out what really makes me feel good, what makes me joyful, and what simple pleasures I can enjoy now.
A few years ago I realized something was very wrong. I had been working with my husband in our insurance business and it was no longer fun or even enjoyable. The industry had changed and most of our clients were self employed and were feeling the pain of the poor economy. Every night I would go to bed thinking that I had lived to fight another day!
I have always been a “fixer.” The one who could find the solution and keep “all the plates spinning.” Most women are like that and we tend to put ourselves last. I came to the realization that this behavior was no longer serving me. I decided it was time to “reinvent myself” and find the part of me that was “lost”.
The first thing I did was find support. I went on the internet and found a few, good life coaches and started following them. I signed up for free newsletters and calls. Some of the women I followed were Cheryl Richardson, Danielle LaPorte, and Fabienne Fredrickson. I also followed Tiny Buddha, a site I loved because it has a lot of inspirational articles and quotes. I love quotes so when I saw one that spoke to me, I would send it to some of our clients. Soon they were asking me to send them to their friends and then I started posting them on my Facebook. Everyone seemed to need positive inspiration!
The next thing I did was create a vision board. I posted pictures of things that I used to enjoy that included art work, nature, cabins, New York City and words that inspired me. The vision board included just about anything that made me feel happy. I started “dreaming” again which was great.
Another thing I did was insist that my husband and I go somewhere every weekend to clear our heads and relax. No more working all the time. We would venture out to explore Southern California. Most of our travel was within an hour of our house and that’s how we ended up at the Alpaca Farm. The minute we walked onto the property we felt a release of stress. We kept going back and each time we fell in love with the idea a little bit more. We have decided that this year we will buy a piece of land to raise alpacas. It’s on our vision board and looking at the photos makes me smile.
One of the most important steps I took was to start a gratitude list and really recognize that there is always something to be grateful for. I believe that “gratitude grows abundance.” As I get older, I realize this is it people… my one life is now. I want to enjoy it and be thankful. Can’t wait for my new “baby!”
Holly Zucker is a wife, mother of a grown son, business owner and on the “Road to Reinvention”. After feeling like she had “lost herself” she has spent the last few years bringing back joy, pleasure, passion, fun, and community into her life. Her mission is to help other women “reinvent themselves” and start living their dreams and desires. We’ve done so much for everyone else, it’s our turn now!